Sunday, August 15, 2010

Interesting week...

Several nights ago I spent some time out watching the stars. It was a beautifully clear night, the night of the Perseid Meteor Shower. I didn’t see many shooting stars, but I was amazed by the vast expanse of the stars. You can’t help but look at the stars and feel so small.

Tonight I was driving our teenage boys back to their biological parents’ homes and there was a thunderstorm surrounding us. We watched lightning dance across the sky for 30-40 miles around us. As the lightning bolts zigzagged down and the expanse of the storm enveloped us, I felt small.

Monday we received word that a teenager we have known for 7 years was tragically killed. Details are still sketchy, but it is a horrible situation. Thursday and Friday we were privileged to spend some time in a neighborhood in San Carlos. We have been spending time with those kids for more than 7 years. On Thursday several of the teenage boys stopped by to chat. They talked about drinking and partying. My heart broke as they joked about the emptiness they were chasing. We talked a little about the boy who was killed. One boy callously said, “That’s life. We are all going to die.” Earlier that day I talked with a close friend who was given until Tuesday to be out of his house. He was broken as he looked at his family being homeless in 5 days. On Friday a good friend of ours had the opportunity to dialog with a teenage girl. This girl shared her desire to have someone to talk with. She feels like she has no support, no boundaries and no one who cares.

This week I have been overwhelmed with the pain and emptiness that surrounds San Carlos. It makes me feel so small and so hopeless. How can we even make a dent in the darkness? How can we help these precious children see that there is more to life than what they can see? How can we give them hope when a teenager dying is just another day?

The truth is that we are small. We are just a speck in this universe. However, there is a God who made the stars and knows them by name. He holds the lightning bolts in His hands and they obey His voice. How can we make a dent in the darkness? We can’t, but there is a God who is real, who is powerful, who is filled with love and compassion, who can. I’m small, but He is big!


1 comment:

  1. Amen! Thank God that He is big, and that He loves us! I pray that God will be with His children, all over the world, and give them the things to say to the lost people of this world, that they might believe in Him, and come to Him with eyes open and a heart in need.